I just got babies to bed and have a moment of silence. Simon and Garfunkle's song "The Sound of Silence" comes to mind. I've never really understood that song from a practical point of view. I understand the poetry of it but really I find silence deafening. First there is the constant whooshing, buzzing and ringing sounds in my ears (which I probably should consult an doctor about) that I can really focus on when everything around me is quiet. Normally the sounds of children drown out these inner ear problems quite effectively. Then there is the sound of my own breathing that has always unnerved me because I can't help but try to make my breathing and heartbeat get into a similar rhythm (this ends up making me light headed). Finally the veritable noise of my thoughts can drown out the peace of any silence.
I assume Simon and Garfunkle wrote this song because it really could only have been written by men. I'm not saying that men don't have thoughts but they have a sometimes desirable ability to turn their thoughts off and think of absolutely nothing. (At least this is what I have heard from many men I know). My silence is consumed with planning meals, schedules, solving problems, planning the future, trying to get my work done in the house, and even more importantly for my actual job. Then, the fact that I am an extrovert makes me automatically want to talk to someone in order to fill the silence. To be honest, as soon as I hear silence I usually get on the phone.
Long ago my parents had a friend who never stopped talking. One time my mom , husband and I drove with her to see a great Canadian landmark. All of us fell asleep as she drove and she never stopped talking. I could hear her as I struggled to maintain a polite level of consciousness and the talking never ended. I had a fear today, as I sat in silence, wishing for someone to talk to that I am becoming this woman or worse yet, that I already am.
Maybe I don't know how to be silent (my Bible Study group would I'm sure agree). So my goal with this blog is this...To spend some time every once in a while thinking without talking. I know that I'm still communicating via written word but...baby steps!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
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4 comments:
I look forward to more of your blogging... but still do like the phone chats too!
Just so you know every time I am alone with my thoughts I am forced to say 'Good Gravy' so I keep my ipod full o' fresh tunes and lectures so I don't get trapped in silence - I guess its why I'd never made it as a Buddhist!
Hey...we're waiting for more posts!
Please keep talking at Bible study. If you stop, then *I'll* be the only one talking and I don't want that kind of pressure!
ps -the image of you trying to synchronize your breathing and heart rates makes me laugh. :)
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